Since my last post, I've had a lot of stuff happen.
It doesn't bear any further mention, mainly because it's unneeded drama in my life. We all have it, so there's no need to dwell on it.
I want to talk about the one constant in my life that got me, and continues to get me through it.
Music.
I'm a DJ for many reasons. I like the hours. Arranging music as a narrative is a challenge, and a joy. I like the energy generated between me and a switched on crowd who get what I'm trying to do.
Mainly, I do it because it keeps me sane.
I respect that other people work jobs they may not necessarily like. That takes courage, patience, and selflessness beyond any comprehension.
I have to be honest with myself in order to live, and I don't have that level of compromise in me anymore. This is who I am, and this is not just a career choice. This is a part of me, an extension.
I'm not trying to make some suffering artist/martyr manifesto. I want to work steady, pull down a reasonable paycheck, and live a good life. I just want to do it as a DJ.
I am just as dedicated to my work as a doctor, or a plumber, or a mechanic. As far as I'm concerned, I'm a blue-collar guy putting in an honest day's work. I don't want to be a superstar producer/DJ. There's too many of those people in the business anyway.
I'm more than happy to take the opening slots, the support slots, the B/C/D List afterparties, the fashion shows, the company parties where everyone dances badly (and drunkenly) to Poker Face.
If the superstar thing happens, great. Still all good if it doesn't.
I have discovered the real reason behind it. Do what you love. You'll be a much happier person for it.
